I Am Brave Enough to Write

Please be careful
I remind you something
DO NOT YOU DARE TO READ THIS POST IF YOU DO NOT CARE ABOUT ALAY PERSON (ME)
yes, ummm, I write this because I am feeling blue
This will be disturb you, because this is not important
If you really want to read this, so, please, be patient, because my grammar is not good enough yet
But, soon! I will be good at speaking English! (:

Well, now I live in different city from my parents, especially my mother
I was in Jogja, but, now, I am in Bintaro, Tangerang
I live in kos-kosan, it is such a rent bedroom in citizen house, it is payed per month or per year
Of course, I live alone at kos-kosan
I thought that it will be easy to live alone, without my family around me
Because I was cold person, I did not talk to much with my mother or my grandmother even we always meet each other in every corner of my home
It was not mean that I do not care, but, that was true that I was to busy with my own life
Although I did not talk to much, I was still gathering with them every time I was in home

I love my own life, I am used to living without my full-team-family around me
So, live alone again? It is not a big Problem

It has been 3 days without my mother in my kos-kosan
She went back to Jogja after spent one week prepared for my college stuffs
I live alone now it must be a simple thing for me

Actually, it is not as simple as that
at least I am not feeling simple yet
I cry a lot, studying in college reminds me of them

I saw my mother's face when she smiled, she was happy to know that I passed the test to enter my college now, although I had to go to another city
At night, she said, "It will make me miss you, when I see your bedroom and you are not there"
I smiled, then she said "I have never expected that you will go as fast as this"
I did not say anything, just smile, laugh, and happy, I did not feel what she felt

But, I love her, I love my father, I love my sister, I love my grandmothers, I love my home in Jogja, I love my pink-can-car, I love my bedroom, I love my holiday-job as my mother's worker, I love my father's call, I love my wi-fi, I love my fridge, I love my homes kitchen, I love to cook random things there, I love to come to my mothers bedroom and ask her to put some oil on my back, I love to chat with my mother after study hard, I love to lay beside her, I love to see her watching youtube, I love everything about my family

They always cheer me up
I am sad, now I leave them, and I have not give them special thing to being remembered yet
Aku meninggalkan rumah tanpa meninggalkan sesuatu yang baik untuk mereka, maksudku, aku sadar yang aku lakukan selama ini lebih banyak merepotkan daripada membantu
Although, I know they are always proud of me

At this time, I will work more hard, I want to see them smile and happy at the same time, and of course I hope I will be the reason why

I am here, in my new college, with dreams and optimisms
Brave and Strong
I really love them, my love is growing bigger because Allah SWT

I prepare for my gift for them, guess what?? You know, the perfect present (: